As the begining of the title said, this going to be a long one, but there is a lot of things I want to talk about, now as 2016 started.
I should start with the not so happy stuff. It's better to get the negative stuff out, so I can end it on a happy note.
So, yeah, how to start, hah.
2015 for me had a lot of ups and downs. Both on art, emotional and personal level. I'm not the kind of person who brings up their feelings, how do they feel, stuff like that, I always felt like it would be weird. Just doing a post on Tumblr or Journal here in DeviantArt about stuff that going on with me, even tho I see so many other people do this. I lot of times I probably see happy and upbeat, but probably a lot of you know, it's easy to look like that through writing.
So why do I mention it. Because it effects what I do. There was a lot of times I felt like I don't have the energy to do art, to draw anything, and than there was times I really wanted to draw something, but had no idea what, which than lead to me being depressed. Actually, I really don't want use that word, depressed, because I feel bad saying that because maybe I'm not depressed, it's just not a good day or week for me, it's not true depression. I don't really know. But it's true that in the past months negativity or if anything bad happened to me effected (and effects) me more than it should. I try to evade them, but it's not easy, almost impossible.
So, as I mentioned, this effects my art. There was not as many drawings created in 2015 as last year and I feel like not as many good, expect maybe for one and two. There are lot of times I feel like I lost the spark I had in the first years as I started this DeviantArt account or posting other art on Tumblr. And that again makes feel down. Makes it feel worthless.
So, in short, it's a circle of low points.
However, as bad as this sounds, it's not like I'm going to end this post saying I quit, I won't do that. I can't do that. Drawing art and sharing it makes me keep going.
I have a line from a person I really look up too, a line that I really love: "Keep Moving Forward". I really try to live by that. Even if it seems I'm not I really do that, I truly try my best to do so, but it sometimes not easy. But I keep trying.
There is one from many things that keeps me going. Around the time you read this, I probably already uploaded two drawings I did in the past weeks, but never get around to upload them, and with those I saw I reached 500 Deviations, which is cool, but what truly amazing is that I saw I reached 10.000+ Watchers. It's blows my mind how many people follow me to see more art from me, and than there are the plus people who follow me on Tumblr for the same reasons.
Not to mention all the people who wrote me how much they love my work, all the wishes on Birthday, Christmas and New Year. I probably never got around to thank you invidually, but I'm truly thankful.
This, this one of the reasons that keeps me going. For you guys. Because you guys gave me so many happy moments, that makes me happy for whole day or a week or more, and it helps me with my work, helps in my low points. And I'm trully thankful.
I'm probably mentioned this in previous post, I'm really sorry I'm not the kind of person you can come and talk to or soemone easy to befriend. That's something I'm trying to work on too, but also going to take a lot of time.
Man, this truly long, I'm sorry, hehe. So let's move on to more happy things.
I'm trying to make 2016 a better year (I should not jinx it). I have some plans and I'm already trying working on them.
First, I have a secret project, actually I have two, I started to work on a few months ago. Not gonna say what is it, because I don't know if it's going to be a thing. I working on it time to time as I have idea for it, and I truly hope I can bring it to you guys in the future. There is another secret project, a much smaller one, but that's a bigger question mark for now, as I need to talk to someone about it, so it could work.
Other stuff I want to talk about that I can talk about. Some people came to me and asked if I have a Patreon. I don't, but I want to create one. As I finished collage I'm now on job hunting, but it's unkown when I get one (hopefully in the near future). A Patreon would trully help me out a lot, and I would do what I really love. I need to work out the details for it first.
Also I have been thinking about it a lot that I want a place I can upload all my drawings. Not just the MLP stuff, but everything (like my RWBY and original art). It's cool that I have a seperate place for them, but it can be a true chaos too. Not to mention, because of this there is a huge gap between art upload here and on Tumblr. I still don't know where (leaning more towards Tumblr), that also something I need to work out.
Of course more regular art will come in the future. Not just here but on Tumblr too.
And I think that's it for now. I'm really sorry how long this is and thank you for reading it. This was really something I had to get out. And now it's out I truly hope we can have a good 2016.
Again, thank you guys for the support. Love all of ya~